Newsflash: It's not about me.

I won't go into detail, but I've been humbled as of late.

Humbled.
Something that is good for us all but never easy.
A scary thing to pray for, but it always ends up being a healthy thing.

I find that at the moment I am humbled, while not fun, I want to stay in that mindset. I want to remember what it feels like to realize I'm not better than others and I never want to go back to where I was before. Unfortunately, I inevitably do.

So, recently I've been reminded, in a very good way, that I cannot be the savior of the world (A guy who is much more qualified already did that). In fact, I really can't "do" anything apart from Christ working through me.

The guy working beside me in the factory. I can't change him.
The homeless person I pass on the street. I can't fix their state.
The sadness I see a friend going through. I can't take away their pain.
The orphans I saw in Russia. I can't be their father.
The millions of abandoned and abused children in the world. I can't come to all of their aid.

But, I can humble myself before the Almighty God and then maybe, just maybe (often most likely if I'm really serving him), he'll begin to work on some of these problems THROUGH me. There needs to be a fluidity in this, a balance. I need to be walking side by side with my Lord and then naturally the outpouring of His Spirit in me should do what it needs to do.

So, do I do nothing? No.
But, I really can't do anything.
Confusing? Probably.

I need God to do it. I need him to carry my burdens. I need him to be all that I need. Truthfully, if it's about me feeling good about helping people, great, but that doesn't mean a whole lot. It's about me loving my God and then Him pouring out his blessings on others through me.

I just rambled. Okay, I feel better now.